Dan Sicoli

USA

Slipdan@aol.com 

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my father painted everything brown
everything
my father
with a 4” brush painted the goddamn world barnstable brown
garage doors   our rusty old van   sidewalks   the backyard picnic table
the backyard   the window trim   my bicycle    the kitchen floor
the soles of my mother’s feet   one of the clothesline poles    my shoelaces
the edges of the blades of the ceiling fan
the steel bearings of a strange machine rotting in the dampness of the wine cellar
the lint in my best friend’s belly button
the angel fish in the fish tank
the keys on my uncle ernie’s accordion
and the now-broken strap that used to hold my uncle’s accordion across my uncle’s chest
the bottoms of all the coffee cups in our house and our neighbor’s house the fence
the sign that says for sale in the bar behind our house
the three canadian 20s ma stuffed in an envelope and tapped behind her vanity mirror
he painted tv screens and toothbrushes
and trees at the edge of the horizon

my father only drank on christmas eve
i only saw him drunk once
it was on halloween
during the ’67 world series was the only time i ever saw my father drunk
he would take a bit of wine on his anniversary
it was the only time i ever saw him drink

and now 
i breathe my father’s soul
forgive me now
i watch it rise
i breathed it in as it rose
forgive me now
it rose
and i let it go
and in flight it did not fall
forgive me
forgive me not

it rose
it
rose

it: rose
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i would run
i would run linda
these skinny legs in flight
but not in fear of you
or your smoky dank parlor past
nor the mutated double helix 
    hanging like a fly strip
    corkscrewing your future into oblivion
i run from fear
of what i would do

the spilled wax
physical evidence
long hard and cold

to think i once slept
in the grotto of
your feral heart

to think i once believed

instead you offered
sanctuary
like a crack-sniffing pale ghost
warring on the rain-soaked pavement of streets
where factories failed

this is the flaw
this
the life sentence
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