Poetry Magazine

Kelli Russell Agodon

USA

agodon@prodigy.net

Kelli Russell Agodon was born and raised in Seattle, Washington. After completing her degree in creative writing at the University of Washington she began work at a publishing company. Within four years, she knew that corporate life was not for her. Kelli and her husband moved to a small seaside community a ferry ride away from Seattle and began a new life.  Kelli now works part-time at a software company and leads writing workshops.

This year, Kelli was chosen as a Washington State Artist's Trust GAP Grant recipient for her collection of poems entitled "Geography," which relates to a woman's struggle with breast cancer by exploring ideas about the geography of the world and the geography of the self. The collection begins with detection of the lump and goes through various experiences with the disease.

Her poems have appeared in Switched-on Gutenberg, CALYX, Crab Creek Review, Pontoon #3, Arnazella and many other publications. She has been a featured poet on the ABC News website and a participant in the Seattle Poetry Festivals. In 1999, she was chosen as one of fourteen writers to be part of the Jack Straw Writers Program in Washington State. Currently, she is the Poetry Editor for Margin: Stories of Magical Realism. 

When Kelli is not writing poetry she is gardening, kayaking or just enjoying the blue herons and bald eagles that fly by her home. Kelli and her husband had a beautiful baby girl on August 16th, 2000. Her name is Delaney Kai. She weighed 8 lbs. 6 oz. & was 21" long.

VENICE

Rusty church bells don't sound, 
instead we listen to the cathedral
eroding, remains from ailing statues  
dropping in the canals 
pouring over—

the place where we live is unwell.

As we cross the flooded piazza, 
balancing on raised boards, we remember 
how we captured the city on paper, 
held church between our fingertips,
lit a candle at the at the end of a line—

pray as the waves wash in.

Paper boats drift under these planks, 
words fade in puddles,
and poems once written, return 
to their original thought, a spark
of the match,

the flame forgetful of why it was lit.
 

Now, it seems 
we all scramble through 
these streets, a thousand women vanishing
into the architecture, a million more 
holding us up between alleyways.

 Venice is dying, 

the painter said to the sky.  
Set the gondolas adrift and float
between our church's doors.
Ask the gods—
how long must candles burn for dying?

(Previously published in Pontoon #3, 1999)

 

ROUTINE CHECK-UP 

Driving home, 
I turn the radio off 
and hear heartbeats in the wipers.

Has this always been here?

The weather has turned to showers 
and I imagine cancer as a cloud—
reaching down, trying to blend 
with earth,
its threadlike veins growing.

You're so young.  I'm sure it's nothing.

At certain places 
I lose track of sky and hill, 
notice the fog between the conifers, 
feel its long thin fingers 
slipping through window cracks.

Let's just run a few tests.

There are prayers in each raindrop, 
glass beads blessing the countryside.
Instead, I think of winter
and its snowstorms, how ice 
can snap power lines,
bring a city into darkness.

You do have a family history of it.

Maybe if it wasn't October, 
the mail wouldn't arrive 
with a line-drawn woman in the right corner 
dressed in bright colors, arm above her head
whispering, it might be you.

 

SELF EXAM

I have driven this road 
a thousand times—felt the slight turn
of the hill, watched evergreens sway
over silent tides and beaches,

but I have never noticed
how the landscape 
follows the curve of my body,
hips, waist, breasts—and keeps going.

As the sky fills the horizon
with ribbons of pink, I notice
each cloud becoming a woman 
swimming between nightfall and morning.

One raises her arm and reaches  
to the moon coming up over the mountains.
Her hand draws circles against the universe, 
over ridges of stars and unfound planets.

I had driven this road 
a thousand times—yet today, I fall 
into the sunset like a diver 
enters the sea from a cliff,

noticing how rocks lie  
beneath the sand, how bubbles
rise to the surface,
breasts, waist, hips—and keep going.

 

THREE GRACES 
for diana & julia

 
When we are young we learn that
white petals reaching out in a thunderstorm 

will only be crushed by heavy rain, but 
tonight, while moon reflects off the pond 

we wade into, we wrap ourselves 
in garlands, dress in wild iris, let indigo drape down

the nape of our neck and feel the rain 
drip between our shoulder blades. 

In this small space between us, we sense
that we are all wildflowers taken by wind, 

seeds whispered across fields, 
landing among the lupines and forget-me-nots.

Lilies are bathing
in some forgotten meadow—

the dew slides between their petals, 
in the darkness, only night air will divide them.

 

RETREATS
Frogs are the monks in the pasture that rolls from my bedroom window.  So be it.
-Ann Batchelor Hursey, Mt. Angel Abbey

There will be no vespers, yet.

You are somewhere in a meadow, 
or walking down a dirt road 
choosing smooth stones—
future words of poems unwritten.

Right now, there are only postcards,
hints of your retreat—
monks and libraries, 
the beginning of Lent,
bewildered by a Macintosh 
in the middle of this sacred world.
Like St. Francis, you find comfort in paper and pen.

I stop three times a day 
to count the clovers in my garden,
sift through old magazines, 
walk the dog, then re-walk the dog—
these are my rituals.

I have slid your postcard
in the family bible, between memorial cards
and locks of hair, a flat wedding corsage, 
between a black and white photo 
of uncles and aunts I've never met—
two priests and three nuns photographed  
like single words of prayers.

© All Copyright, 2000, Kelli Russell Agodon.
All Rights Reserved. Printed By Permission. 

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